Trust

I have this wonderful little devotional that I've been reading for quite sometime. It's called "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. It is by far my favorite devotional I've ever had. I am constantly encouraged and often feel like Jesus is speaking right to me when I read it.
I read today's devotion and it was exactly what I needed to hear during this time, and I couldn't help but to share it.
So here it goes. I hope you are just as blessed as I was.

"I AM TAKING CARE OF YOU. Trust Me at all times. Trust Me in all circumstances. Trust Me with all your heart. When you are weary and everything seems to be going wrong, you can still utter these four words: "I trust You, Jesus." By doing so, you release into My control, and you fall back into the security of My everlasting arms. 
Before you arise from your bed in the morning, I have already arranged the events of your day. Every day provides many opportunities for you to learn My ways and grow closer to Me. Signs of My presence brightens even the dullest day when you have eyes that really see. Search for me as for hidden treasure. I will be found by you." 

I would recommend this devotional to EVERYONE! They even have versions for kids. 

The Unknown

I was very surprised the other night when I was lounging on the couch considering getting ready for bed when my water broke. Of course at only being 31 weeks along, this got my blood pumping. I hurried off to the hospital in town and they confirmed that indeed my water had broken and gave me Magnesium to stop the contractions. They sent me off in an ambulance to Wesley Medical Center in Wichita.

It was a long night as I waited to find out what the doctors thought would be best. Were they going to deliver the babies right away or wait? They finally decided to just closely monitor me and do their best to keep the babies in the womb until I reach 34 weeks. I spent the night not really sleeping as the nurses kept coming in checking on the babies heart rates. They weren't stabilizing and they started talking about delivery again. 

I of course just wanted to know what would happen. I wanted to know the plan. I don't like guessing. I don't like not being sure. I want to know what will happen and at exactly what moment it will take place. 

Their little heart rates stabilized and they moved me to another room where I will be spending the next 3 weeks or until I go into labor again. They are still monitoring the boys closely and I am on antibiotics to help reduce the risk of infection since my water broke. I also have been getting steroid shots to help with the development of their lungs. 

I have continued to learn so much during this pregnancy. I've learned a lot about trusting in God and fully relying in Him. I've learned about His overwhelming peace, grace, and love. I have learned as I've cried out God for help in times of great trouble that He is always with me: during the tumult of the storm and the calm.  

I DON'T KNOW what today or tomorrow holds.

I DON'T KNOW what time or day my sweet baby boys will arrive into the world.

I DON'T KNOW what it will be like or what to expect. 

I DON'T KNOW how long they will be in the NICU.

I DON'T KNOW what complications they might face or mountains we will be climbing.

However, I have peace. And this is why:

I DO KNOW that God is holding my precious family in His hands. 

I DO KNOW that He is good.

I DO KNOW that He knows the master plan

I DO KNOW that I can trust Him 

I DO KNOW that He has already done miracles for my little Lane and Eli and can continue to do that.

I DO KNOW that He has great plans for the lives of my boys

I DO KNOW that this is only the beginning of an incredible story and journey

So what I DO KNOW far outweighs THE UNKNOWN, the fears, and the worries.

The boys and I just less than a week ago.

Reflections

Psalm 8:3-6:

"When I consider Your heavens,

 the work of Your fingers, 

the moon and the stars, 

which You have ordained; 

what is man that You take thought of him, 

and the son of man that You care for him?

 Yet You have made him a little lower than God,

 and You crown him with glory and majesty! 

You make him to rule over the works of Your hands;

 You have put all things under his feet."

When I stop and think about the planets God formed, how He created earth, how He covered the ground with blades of grass, how He paints the sky with sunsets, how He creates life, I am in complete awe. What astonishes me even further is God, creator of all things, who is so majestic in all His ways, has crowned us with His glory. 

We are selfish, undeserving, unworthy individuals, but God wants us. He wants us to be His. He wants us to turn from the mundane in life and focus on His beauty. He loves us so much He doesn't care how unqualified we are. He is calling us to Him. He is holding out His hand asking us to join Him. 

Are we willing to set aside out day, our agendas for Him? Are we willing to give all our attention and affection to the one who created us? 

What would our lives look like if we lived with the knowledge that God made us to rule over the works of His hand, that He has crowned us with glory and majesty?